Change of time

I am not a writer but a thinker who tries to write...

My hopes is to share my thoughts of life and the changes that have occurred. When I came to this knowledge of being born again, I did not truly understand the fullness. Many have come and gone with a conviction of fully understanding this phrase which I am now familiar with. However, I would like to just share about my wife and I.

A little background of what has happened. My life and its short highlights. I had gone to Oceanside High thinking I would live life carelessly. No purpose just living. My father who was a devote Christian shared about the greatest person who lived 2000 years ago, Jesus.

The first time, I sought the truth the best I could but ended up finding nothing but living on both sides of the fence. I was convince I would surrender my life to His ways and submit to Him alone. The amazing part was I did not. I continue to be a good person while at the same time a wretched man. After high school, I was left with a decision.

Do I go to college? This was a huge decision but not as much as placing my faith in someone who I never saw nor fully understood. I did it. I went to college and spent time finding out who I was and interacting with other Christians. Unlike high school, I was more aware of my sin and fighting against it then college. My life in college was a good one but one that was difficult and shameful. My journey with understanding the Truth was not easy for I was still walking the fence. Yet, my college days were over. I did well and moved on.

Some time after, I was caught with a life changing trial. My close friend was no more (they did not die), I was asked to leave a church, and worse I became homeless (by my choice). For those several months, I again found myself seeking the Way. I was always wrestling with life's chaos...

One day I will finish this but for now to be continue....